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Overcoming my fear of blogging

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Today's post is going to be a very personal one. I'm laying it all out there! I'm hoping I can help some of you lovely peeps out there who may be going through the same thing. I'm letting you know that you're not alone! Let me start from the beginning...

My blogging journey


About 5 years ago, I started my first job in the wedding industry. I was a wedding planning intern in NYC. I loved every moment of it. I learned soooo much in three months. (Let me tell you how I got to the internship...) After a year in law school, I knew law wasn't the career for me. I just didn't know what my next steps should be because I studied and prepare for so many years for my law career. It took six years of sacrifice for me to realize...I hate it. But hey! It happens to lots of us out there! Just wish I didn't have $70k in loans... Since I had a little extra time on my hands while I tried to determine my next steps, my brother and soon to be sister-in-law asked for my help planning their wedding. Thanks to my school days, I worked well under pressure, was used to deadlines, and I was very organized. Plan a wedding?! Why not? Let's do this! 

So while I was planning their wedding, I realized that I loved it! It was so much more fun and creative than law. So after they officially got hitched, I decided to try my hand at wedding planning and learn the ropes through an internship. Internships are a great way to determine whether a career is a right fit for you. (No, I never did a legal internship) After my internship, I still worked as an assistant wedding planner but to further feed my addiction....I started a wedding blog! 

About my first blog

I initially started the wedding blog on my own but quickly realized that wedding blogging wasn't easy! (Blogging really is a full time job!) So much work involved! So a year later, I asked one of my former college classmates who also went to law school to help me. After a quick rebrand and blog name change, there were now two of us. Should be fab right? We can do twice the amount of work! Ummmm wrong! I can write a whole separate post about business partnerships and mistakes you can avoid...but I won't share that just yet! In the end, our partnership was more 90/10 with me doing 90% of the work. Doesn't really make for a good partnership does it? Uh no. Our blog was really becoming successful but we still weren't at the point of making money. When I decided to end the partnership, I offered to buy her out so I could continue to blog. Well that didn't work out. She wanted over $1,000 of money I didn't have for a blog that wasn't making any money yet. I knew we were going to make money at some point and had a large readership, but it wasn't there yet. After much prayer and consideration, I had to completely shut the blog down. Legally, I couldn't even tell readers where I would be blogging next. Nope. Just end it. Poof! Years of hard work was officially flushed down the drain! It was like a stab to the heart. All my hard work was gone.


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Starting Over: My second blog


So on to creating a new wedding blog. I made loads of mistakes when starting this new venture. I'll get into the specific in a separate post but the main issue was...I wanted to start a new blog but be in the same position as my old blog. I couldn't accept that this was new and I was going to have to find new readers. After 3 years and loads of mistakes, I was never able to get the readership I once had. I am still blogging but after so much drama, I didn't have the same passion for weddings as I once had. It wasn't all I thought about anymore. I had grown and changed as a person and I want my blog to reflect those changes. I'm now no longer in my 20s. I'm no longer trying to sort of my career or where I live. I'm settled. (Thank goodness). I want to share my new experiences with you and my random thoughts but I had to start a new blog adventure. I won't be discussing one specific topic. Beauty, books, fitness, fashion, blogging tips and tricks, and random fun will all be part of The Gossip Darling. 


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Question: Why am I scared of starting over...for the third time?

I'm downright terrified about this new adventure. What if I fail again? What if I spend all this time (and money) and have nothing to show for it? Did I just waste hours of free time for nothing? 

Answer...

I refuse to give into my fears.
I know my blogging journey wasn't a waste of time. I enjoyed every moment of it because even the drama has taught me many lessons and has allowed me to connect with so many wonderful people. What I realized was...weddings isn't my passion...blogging is! It doesn't matter what I blog about. I just love the whole process of thinking of a new idea, writing a post, sharing it with others, and even having one person read what I have to say. There's a purpose. Whether it's releasing my inner thoughts or who exactly knows, I do know that I won't give up my blogging passion. 


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2 comments:

  1. I'm excited to follow along on your NEW blogging journey. :) You're off to a great start!

    xotawni

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    1. Thank you so much! Super kind and generous of you! xo

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